April's Scars

i get home at night
and get my kid to bed
wanna call him up
just to hear his voice again
so i cut myself instead

it's hard
so goddamn hard
trying to get it all done
i use a knife
sweet shiny knife
because i don't have a gun

the office woman hate me
talk shit they don't know
i do their work for them
and smile when i'm done

the bills are piling up
in fact they are choking me
i don't want my baby to go
i don't do it for the blood
but the pain to flow